Exercise - enough said

I am not a naturally athletic person.  In fact, I was a cheerleader when all we did was cheers, not feats of gymnastics.  I have gotten more competitive, but I think that comes from my children participating in sports such as travel soccer, football, and basketball.  Luckily my children have inherited their father's athletic abilities.  So for me to exercise, I have to really push myself--I mean really push myself.

Last week I said I didn't want to go to the gym.  My son said, "Mom, it's for your health."  Shame, shame on me.  So of course I went, worked out, and felt better. 

This week I worked out 6 out of 7 days.  It was break week which made it easier.  But also because we purchased a gym membership for my 14 year old.  She pushed me.  She wants to keep in shape for soccer, even though she still practices during the winter and does a speed and agility camp.  Like I said, they're like their father.  When I was a teenager I like shopping--not working out.

 One think I pledged was never to push my children in regards to their weight.  I was pushed.  I've been on diets since I was 11--and I believe this is the root of my weight problems and horrible metabolism.  And I would not do that to my children.   Luckily, they are into sports and when it is football season my son is truly focused about what he eats and he's only 12.  He does it all himself.

So, I'm sitting her a little sore from all of the gym visits, but I feel good.

February 27, 2011
Weight:  242.4
Loss:  12 pounds 13 ounces
Measurements: Will do next week
Mood: Great
Exercise: 6 times

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

A day wasted!

I totally screwed up today.  I had meetings that lasted well past lunch so I didn't get to eat.  Then I stopped a quaint shop that had the largest candy (Godiva) display I've ever seen.  I didn't buy chocolate -- I know it sends me into a must eat chocolate mode.  I bought jelly beans.  And I ate them.  Not too many, I counted the points, but then the sugar made me feel like crap.  And then I ate milk duds that I found at home.  Then I ate junk, junk, junk, the rest of the day.

Totally disappointed in myself.  Plus this binge made me feel like crap. 

I know I'm human and I will veer off the path.  But why?  Why? Why?  Sugar just does something to me.  It makes me crazy, addicted, grouchy.

So.  On Thursday, I worked out, then went walking again.  Ate better, planned better.  Friday (today), I worked out, had a yogurt smoothy and healthy lunch.  Making dinner and will have the best options for me.  I've worked through Wednesday and have hopefully redeemed myself enough to have a loss on Sunday.

I just had to vent.  Sometimes I feel out of control and it is disheartening.  I wish food wasn't such a problem for me.  I wish I could eat one piece of chocolate and not go in a tizzy.  I wish that I didn't have to watch everything that went in my mouth.

BUT I do, it's my life, I have to face facts that I will have to watch what I eat for the rest of my days.

Til Sunday - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

There's so much more!

I've received some interesting comments since I've begun to lose weight.  The other day a lady at work walked by and said, "You know, you really are very pretty" a guy said, "Someone said you are losing weight, I don't notice stuff like that"  (right, he always noticed when I ate junk food before Weight Watchers). 

What I want to say to America, The world, Those who hate fat people, ~

I AM SO MUCH MORE THAN MY WEIGHT!!!!

I know it is human nature to judge a person within the first few seconds of meeting them.  And a huge part of that is appearance.  But, come on!  I am a woman, mother, wife.  I'm intelligent, fun, friendly.  I have 2 Bachelor Degrees,  1 Master, working on a second Master's Degree.  I love to read,

Why, oh why do people continue to judge me and my appearance due to my weight?  I have lost and gained weight countless times, but people only comment positively when I've noticibly lost weight.

So I pledge to all of you who may read this blog - don't judge people on their appearance.  Learn more, dig deeper, accept before you dismiss.

February 20, 2011
Weight:  243.2
Loss:  11 pound 14 ounces
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Great
Exercise: 5 times

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

I was thinking. . .

So, I was thinking about all of the times I have tried to lose weight.  I keep thinking of the roller coaster ride that has been up more than it was down.  Then I was think about how much our weight affects our lives.  A few pounds can ruin a week.  A few pounds can make your favorite pants not fit.  A few pounds can make you doubt yourself.

I hate that we as women allow ourselves to be influenced by numbers on a scale.  As if our weight defines us.  What a crime we commit against ourselves, our kind, our sex.  There are so many more facets to our persons than the number on the scale.  We are intelligent, kind, helpful, loving, so, so many things.

Even though I'm on this quest to lose weight doesn't mean that I have lost sight of the fact that there is so much more to me than my weight.

So you may be thinking I'm a hypocrite right now.  But truly I'm not.  I am focusing on my health.  I am not losing weight for anyone else but myself.  In the past, this wasn't true.  In fact, I was on diets at age 10 and 11 because my mother felt I needed to lose weight.  In my teen years, my weight went up and down to coincide with the weight of my friends and the latest diet trend.  High school, college, I was able to maintain a decent weight, but always felt as if I was a cow.  If only, I'd think.  If only I was 10 pounds lighter I'd have more fun, a boyfriend, etc. 

Do we brainwash ourselves at a young age to what is the perfect way to look and live?  We have to always be aware of what we are eating?  There were times when I felt guilty about eating veggies because of the calories--of carrots and celery.  How crazy.

So what are you weight loss demons?  What is your biggest fear around your weight?

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~



February 13, 2011
Weight:  243.6
Loss:  11..4
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Great
Exercise: 4 times

Better Late Than Never

So, I'm late posting.  I was super busy this weekend and then sick.  Not a lot of exercising done this week, in fact I only made to the gym once.  Shame, shame on me.  I hate that I not only didn't lose this week, but actually gained.  It totally pisses me off.  I counted everything, but after a few Super Bowl Parties (Go Packers!), it got out of hand.

February 7, 2011
Weight:  245.6
Up: 1.2
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Good and Bad
Exercise: Once :(

Back on the plan, worked out yesterday, will work out again tonight. 

Even though I've gained a little this week, I do have to say losing in general, all the healthy eating has made me feel:
Sexier,  Energetic, Happier, Easier to move, Focused.

Before Weight Watchers I felt like a schlep.  Tired, Cranky, Like I stuck out like a sore thumb only I was a big blob.  

How do you feel - good, bad?   Sexy?  Determined?

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~