I totally screwed up today. I had meetings that lasted well past lunch so I didn't get to eat. Then I stopped a quaint shop that had the largest candy (Godiva) display I've ever seen. I didn't buy chocolate -- I know it sends me into a must eat chocolate mode. I bought jelly beans. And I ate them. Not too many, I counted the points, but then the sugar made me feel like crap. And then I ate milk duds that I found at home. Then I ate junk, junk, junk, the rest of the day.
Totally disappointed in myself. Plus this binge made me feel like crap.
I know I'm human and I will veer off the path. But why? Why? Why? Sugar just does something to me. It makes me crazy, addicted, grouchy.
So. On Thursday, I worked out, then went walking again. Ate better, planned better. Friday (today), I worked out, had a yogurt smoothy and healthy lunch. Making dinner and will have the best options for me. I've worked through Wednesday and have hopefully redeemed myself enough to have a loss on Sunday.
I just had to vent. Sometimes I feel out of control and it is disheartening. I wish food wasn't such a problem for me. I wish I could eat one piece of chocolate and not go in a tizzy. I wish that I didn't have to watch everything that went in my mouth.
BUT I do, it's my life, I have to face facts that I will have to watch what I eat for the rest of my days.
Til Sunday - be healthy!
The Fat Lady Sings ~
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