So, I was thinking about all of the times I have tried to lose weight. I keep thinking of the roller coaster ride that has been up more than it was down. Then I was think about how much our weight affects our lives. A few pounds can ruin a week. A few pounds can make your favorite pants not fit. A few pounds can make you doubt yourself.
I hate that we as women allow ourselves to be influenced by numbers on a scale. As if our weight defines us. What a crime we commit against ourselves, our kind, our sex. There are so many more facets to our persons than the number on the scale. We are intelligent, kind, helpful, loving, so, so many things.
Even though I'm on this quest to lose weight doesn't mean that I have lost sight of the fact that there is so much more to me than my weight.
So you may be thinking I'm a hypocrite right now. But truly I'm not. I am focusing on my health. I am not losing weight for anyone else but myself. In the past, this wasn't true. In fact, I was on diets at age 10 and 11 because my mother felt I needed to lose weight. In my teen years, my weight went up and down to coincide with the weight of my friends and the latest diet trend. High school, college, I was able to maintain a decent weight, but always felt as if I was a cow. If only, I'd think. If only I was 10 pounds lighter I'd have more fun, a boyfriend, etc.
Do we brainwash ourselves at a young age to what is the perfect way to look and live? We have to always be aware of what we are eating? There were times when I felt guilty about eating veggies because of the calories--of carrots and celery. How crazy.
So what are you weight loss demons? What is your biggest fear around your weight?
Til next week - be healthy!
The Fat Lady Sings ~
February 13, 2011
Weight: 243.6
Loss: 11..4
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Great
Exercise: 4 times
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