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Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

Hello,

Happy Mother's Day to all of the mothers out there!  I had a great day with my family, which includes 3 wonderful children. 

We started the day doing a 2.5 mile walk for breast cancer.  This is an annual event that we try to participate in whenever possible.  It was a sunny, warm, day that made the walk along Charlotte Beach perfect.  My mother is a breast cancer survivor and we walk for her even though she lives in a different city.  It was amazing walking in this huge wave of pink.  Some supporters, some survivors--all important in this fight.  I love their slogan "Fight Like A Girl".  If you know someone who has cancer or is a cancer survivor, or has sadly lost their fight, reach out to them or those around them to offer support.  I guarantee they will appreciate it.

May 8, 2011
Weight:  240.6
Mood: Fine
Exercise: Lots of walking

A loss this week, I think the key (as I knew it was) is to make sure I note everything I eat.  I have the app on my iPad, so it is really easy.  I just have to make sure I take note. 

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Monday, May 2, 2011

Clothing

I'm a fashion lover.  I love, love, love clothing.  I look at catalogs, online catalogs, watch What Not To Wear religiously, and shop way too much.

However, as an overweight woman, my options are really limited.  Why don't designers see that the same styles they create for "regular" size works fine for heavier women?  I hate looking at the small sections for plus size women in department stores.  Isn't the average size woman a size 16?  So cater to them, create beautiful clothing for them, the public demands it!

When ever possible, I fill out comment cards about the subpar selection for plus size women.  All to no avail.

So, I don't only have a problem with the clothing, but I'm in a quandary.  Do I purchase new clothing now as I'm getting smaller (scale may not show it, but my body is changing) or do I wait until there is more weight loss?

I'm not sure what to do.  Since I've lost and gained so many times, I do have a wardrobe that can be used, but I love new clothes!

May 1, 2011
Weight:  241.2
Mood: Fine
Exercise: I have exercised a ton the past 2 weeks!

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Keeping Motivated

Hello,

I didn't post last week and I hate it!  I was out of town on business (see weight below) and it was difficult exercising and eating right--plus no scale.  At a conference, we don't usually have many food options.  Nights go long and mornings come early, and exhaustion hits fast.  So, I have re-focused this week and will try, try, try to exercise more. 

I'm not sure about the weight gain and I hate to make excuses of blame anything else but the reality is I didn't work out once in the last week. 

This week I've already made a change.  I went to the gym and worked out for an hour.  It felt good to sweat and feel my muscles flexing and stretching.  So, so good.

April 17, 2011
Weight:  241.0
Loss:  14 pounds 0 ounces
Measurements & photo update every 25 pounds.
Mood: Fine
Exercise: See above

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Monday, April 4, 2011

The Scale - Friend or Foe

When I first started, I would weigh in once a week.  I was excited to see the scale moving down.  However as weeks passed, I began to doubt myself and after one week of plateau, I began weighing in everyday.

What do you do?  Do you weigh in everyday or once a week?  My weigh in day is Sunday.  Is this good or bad?  That means I'm not goofing around with my points on Friday or Saturday because I know I'll be weighing in on Sunday.  Should I change my weigh in to Friday? Saturday morning? 

These questions are posted because I went out to eat, followed my points, but have very little shift downward.  Now, was it the salt?  The variation in what points figure for the restaurant and what actually happens on site?  I'm not sure.  I do know eating out is risky.  You can't guarantee what is actually happening in the kitchen.  So more oil or other fats may be added.  The portions may not be perfect.  I'm not really sure.

But, I do know that I have to watch it.  Refocus.  Remain motivated.  I'm in this for the long haul and I have to--HAVE TO--take my health seriously.

April 3, 2011
Weight:  240.2
Loss:  14 pounds 8 ounces
Measurements & photo update every 25 pounds.
Mood: Fine
Exercise: Certainly not enough, but I'm adding more steps into my day and moving around the office more.  Parking father away.  Going up and down stairs. etc!

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Chaos!

Late posting this week.  Like the title says, life is chaos.  I actually thrive in chaos. I don't know what to do when it's quiet and no one is around.  With 3 kids, a hubby and a dog, we really have a ton going on and it is busy, busy, busy.  In fact, when I'm in the house alone, I sometimes think, "What am I suppose to do?"  Strange, I know.

How do you remain sane in a chaotic world?  I try to carve out time for myself to either read or workout.  With more and more thrown at us from the family, work, the world, it's important to have me time.  But when?

March 27, 2011
Weight:  241.0 (URGGGG!)
Loss:  14 pounds 0 ounces
Measurements & photo update every 25 pounds.
Mood: Fine
Exercise: 2 trips to the gym

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, March 20, 2011

I hate hormones!

Okay, so as women, we have to deal with hormones and the face that we have a harder time losing weight due our bodies, fat levels, curves, etc. 

So this weekend, I am bloated from my toenails to my roots.  No excuse, but because we are women there are several days and maybe for some, weeks in which our hormones affect us (and those around us) emotionally and physically. 

I know as I get older (I'm 42) (Okay very close to 43) my hormones have a mind of their own.  Everyone in the house dreads this time of the month.  I admit, for 2 days, I'm a bitch from hell.  No doubt about it.  Everything aggravates me.  Everything!

How is this relevant to my blog?  Well, as we all know weight loss is directly tied to hormone fluctuation.  I don't feel like working out and I crave food - carbs mostly. 

I was still feeling sick this week, only got one workout in and with the kids sick as well, it's been a ghastly week.  So, I put on 4 ounces.  Yeah, not much in the scheme of things, but I'm still a little pissed off.  Perhaps that's the hormones talking.

March 20, 2011
Weight:  241.0
Loss:  14 pounds 0 ounces
Measurements & photo update every 25 pounds.
Mood: Didn't you read above?
Exercise: 1 day - still sick.

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Luck of the Irish

I often wonder why some people struggle with their weight and others don't.  Do skinny people have other woes to worry about that are much grander than fat people?  I don't think so.  When I look at what I eat and what others eat, it always shocks me.  I can eat the same, and gain weight.  I look at carbs (potatoes are my favorite!) and that's it, instant weight gain.

Is it our heritage?  I'm a wee bit Irish, so that may explain the potato obsession.  Is it DNA?  Heredity?  And if it is heredity, why do some people in the same family look and metabolize so differently?

Just a few questions to ponder this week!

March 13, 2011
Weight:  240.4
Loss:  14 pounds 6 ounces
Measurements: when I get around to it.
Mood: Great
Exercise: None - sick, sick, sick


Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Hanging In There

The household is sick.  Started with my husband and now I'm down for the count with 2 of my three children close behind.  I have still exercised this week and still maintained my eating plan.  Which I figure is great.  What pisses me off is that my husband lost 8 pounds.  8 POUNDS! Without even trying. I ate my fruits and veggies, had Lean Cuisines for lunch, stayed true for dinner.  Down 1 pound.  I know I should be celebrating, maybe it is my cold-fogged brain that is making me grouchy.  Hopefully it will pass.

Why do men lose so much faster than women?  I know the answer, but it doesn't make me any happier.  More muscle, less fat, yadda, yadda.

March 6, 2011
Weight:  241.4
Loss:  13 pounds 6 ounces
Measurements: when I get around to it.
Mood: Great
Exercise: 3 times

Hoping to feel better next week.

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Exercise - enough said

I am not a naturally athletic person.  In fact, I was a cheerleader when all we did was cheers, not feats of gymnastics.  I have gotten more competitive, but I think that comes from my children participating in sports such as travel soccer, football, and basketball.  Luckily my children have inherited their father's athletic abilities.  So for me to exercise, I have to really push myself--I mean really push myself.

Last week I said I didn't want to go to the gym.  My son said, "Mom, it's for your health."  Shame, shame on me.  So of course I went, worked out, and felt better. 

This week I worked out 6 out of 7 days.  It was break week which made it easier.  But also because we purchased a gym membership for my 14 year old.  She pushed me.  She wants to keep in shape for soccer, even though she still practices during the winter and does a speed and agility camp.  Like I said, they're like their father.  When I was a teenager I like shopping--not working out.

 One think I pledged was never to push my children in regards to their weight.  I was pushed.  I've been on diets since I was 11--and I believe this is the root of my weight problems and horrible metabolism.  And I would not do that to my children.   Luckily, they are into sports and when it is football season my son is truly focused about what he eats and he's only 12.  He does it all himself.

So, I'm sitting her a little sore from all of the gym visits, but I feel good.

February 27, 2011
Weight:  242.4
Loss:  12 pounds 13 ounces
Measurements: Will do next week
Mood: Great
Exercise: 6 times

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Friday, February 25, 2011

A day wasted!

I totally screwed up today.  I had meetings that lasted well past lunch so I didn't get to eat.  Then I stopped a quaint shop that had the largest candy (Godiva) display I've ever seen.  I didn't buy chocolate -- I know it sends me into a must eat chocolate mode.  I bought jelly beans.  And I ate them.  Not too many, I counted the points, but then the sugar made me feel like crap.  And then I ate milk duds that I found at home.  Then I ate junk, junk, junk, the rest of the day.

Totally disappointed in myself.  Plus this binge made me feel like crap. 

I know I'm human and I will veer off the path.  But why?  Why? Why?  Sugar just does something to me.  It makes me crazy, addicted, grouchy.

So.  On Thursday, I worked out, then went walking again.  Ate better, planned better.  Friday (today), I worked out, had a yogurt smoothy and healthy lunch.  Making dinner and will have the best options for me.  I've worked through Wednesday and have hopefully redeemed myself enough to have a loss on Sunday.

I just had to vent.  Sometimes I feel out of control and it is disheartening.  I wish food wasn't such a problem for me.  I wish I could eat one piece of chocolate and not go in a tizzy.  I wish that I didn't have to watch everything that went in my mouth.

BUT I do, it's my life, I have to face facts that I will have to watch what I eat for the rest of my days.

Til Sunday - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, February 20, 2011

There's so much more!

I've received some interesting comments since I've begun to lose weight.  The other day a lady at work walked by and said, "You know, you really are very pretty" a guy said, "Someone said you are losing weight, I don't notice stuff like that"  (right, he always noticed when I ate junk food before Weight Watchers). 

What I want to say to America, The world, Those who hate fat people, ~

I AM SO MUCH MORE THAN MY WEIGHT!!!!

I know it is human nature to judge a person within the first few seconds of meeting them.  And a huge part of that is appearance.  But, come on!  I am a woman, mother, wife.  I'm intelligent, fun, friendly.  I have 2 Bachelor Degrees,  1 Master, working on a second Master's Degree.  I love to read,

Why, oh why do people continue to judge me and my appearance due to my weight?  I have lost and gained weight countless times, but people only comment positively when I've noticibly lost weight.

So I pledge to all of you who may read this blog - don't judge people on their appearance.  Learn more, dig deeper, accept before you dismiss.

February 20, 2011
Weight:  243.2
Loss:  11 pound 14 ounces
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Great
Exercise: 5 times

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, February 13, 2011

I was thinking. . .

So, I was thinking about all of the times I have tried to lose weight.  I keep thinking of the roller coaster ride that has been up more than it was down.  Then I was think about how much our weight affects our lives.  A few pounds can ruin a week.  A few pounds can make your favorite pants not fit.  A few pounds can make you doubt yourself.

I hate that we as women allow ourselves to be influenced by numbers on a scale.  As if our weight defines us.  What a crime we commit against ourselves, our kind, our sex.  There are so many more facets to our persons than the number on the scale.  We are intelligent, kind, helpful, loving, so, so many things.

Even though I'm on this quest to lose weight doesn't mean that I have lost sight of the fact that there is so much more to me than my weight.

So you may be thinking I'm a hypocrite right now.  But truly I'm not.  I am focusing on my health.  I am not losing weight for anyone else but myself.  In the past, this wasn't true.  In fact, I was on diets at age 10 and 11 because my mother felt I needed to lose weight.  In my teen years, my weight went up and down to coincide with the weight of my friends and the latest diet trend.  High school, college, I was able to maintain a decent weight, but always felt as if I was a cow.  If only, I'd think.  If only I was 10 pounds lighter I'd have more fun, a boyfriend, etc. 

Do we brainwash ourselves at a young age to what is the perfect way to look and live?  We have to always be aware of what we are eating?  There were times when I felt guilty about eating veggies because of the calories--of carrots and celery.  How crazy.

So what are you weight loss demons?  What is your biggest fear around your weight?

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~



February 13, 2011
Weight:  243.6
Loss:  11..4
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Great
Exercise: 4 times

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Better Late Than Never

So, I'm late posting.  I was super busy this weekend and then sick.  Not a lot of exercising done this week, in fact I only made to the gym once.  Shame, shame on me.  I hate that I not only didn't lose this week, but actually gained.  It totally pisses me off.  I counted everything, but after a few Super Bowl Parties (Go Packers!), it got out of hand.

February 7, 2011
Weight:  245.6
Up: 1.2
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Good and Bad
Exercise: Once :(

Back on the plan, worked out yesterday, will work out again tonight. 

Even though I've gained a little this week, I do have to say losing in general, all the healthy eating has made me feel:
Sexier,  Energetic, Happier, Easier to move, Focused.

Before Weight Watchers I felt like a schlep.  Tired, Cranky, Like I stuck out like a sore thumb only I was a big blob.  

How do you feel - good, bad?   Sexy?  Determined?

Til next week - be healthy!

The Fat Lady Sings ~

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Spreading the Word

Right now, I am doing Weight Watchers online.  I don't go in to meetings, get weighed before others, and then listen to a meeting.  Some people say that they have to go to the meetings because they feel accountable and follow the plan better. 

For me, I have a lot of reminders I'm accountable.  My children ask me about the plan, how many points things are, etc.  I have told people at work so if I don't follow the plan I feel as if people are watching me.  So I don't need to go to meetings. BUT, I still have this fear.  I've struggled with my weight for so long and I've gained and lost a million times.  Even when I have been thinner, I still felt like a fat person.  I need to succeed, then I need to keep it off.  What if I can't?  What if I stumble, gain and then can't get on track?  These are questions I'm sure every dieter asks, but it doesn't make it any less reality for me.

Do you tell other people you are dieting?  Do you feel that everyone has become the diet police?  Which I hate by the way.  Weight Watchers is a flexible plan.  I can eat anything as long as I count it and as long as I have the points.  So who's business is it for them to ask, "Should you be eating that?"

January 29, 2011
Weight:  244.8
Total loss: 10.2
Measurements: I will do this once a month
Mood: Feeling Good
Exercise: Gym 3 times, added extra walking in my everyday life and I'm parking farther away.

So, I'm still losing, feeling good. 

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Satisfaction

So, when dieting in the past I always felt dissatisfied and then I'd take a bite of something not on the diet and that's all it took -- I went hog wild.  One taste of something sweet was usually all it took.

So this time around, I'm surrounding myself with better options so I can be satisfied without going off my "diet".  Skinny Cow Ice Cream sandwiches, Weight Watchers fudge popcycles, Weight Watchers deserts.  All favorites, really good tasting, and keys to keeping me satisfied.

I went out of town for business this week and was really worried that I'd have trouble.  So I brought bananas, celery sticks, and baby carrots for the ride and my time in the hotel.  Luckily so many people at the meeting were on Weight Watchers we made good choices for lunch and dinner.  But it didn't matter, I was counting points no matter what.

So, how did I do this week?  (drum roll please!)  Down another 2.2 pounds!!!

January 23, 2011
Weight:  246.6
Total loss: 8.4
Measurements: Waist 46.25 Hips 52  Thigh 31.50 Upper Arm 16  Dress Size 20
Mood: Feeling Good - motivated
Exercise: Not as much as I wanted, but I kept moving.

Another week gone and I'm doing good.  I'm looking ahead, trying to plan and make sure I have the right tools and foods with me to make sure I'm satisfied.  I have the biggest sweet tooth in the country and to me, having sweets on hand that are easy to count and still taste good--I'm golden.

How do you keep satisfied when you are dieting?  What keeps you on the right path?

Til next week - be healthy~

The fat lady sings ~

Sunday, January 16, 2011

One foot in front of the other

Hello,

We'll 2 1/2 weeks in and I feel really good.  Less bloated, more energy, like what I'm eating, getting plenty of veggies.  This week I exercised 3 times at the gym and once doing the XBox Kinects dancing.  Better than last week.

January 16, 2011
Weight:  248.8
Total loss: 6.2
Measurements: I promise to do this tomorrow
Mood: Feeling Good
Exercise: See above

So, I'm losing pretty slowly.  Everyone says that's great and the way to do it, but it takes a lot to stay motivated.  I never believed dieting after 40 horror stories.  But I guess it's true--metabolism slows, energy slows, muscle starts to dwindle, hormones (damn them) wreak havoc on you body in so many ways.  So, I'm staying focused, I have to.  Why did I lose so little this week?  PMS? Salt? Hell if I know.

I'm also trying not to let everyone in the world know I'm on Weight Watchers.  The more people who know the more people will have expectations.  They watch what you put in your mouth, they comment, "How many points is that?"  Like it's any of their business. . .Hello, it's my body, mind your own.

So, when you are dieting, do you let everyone know?  Or do you keep it to yourself?  Do you like having a diet buddy?  Or do you prefer to not compete for every pound lost?

Til next week- be healthy!

The fat lady sings ~

Sunday, January 9, 2011

To weigh, or not to weigh

Usually, I avoid the scale.  I see it in the bathroom as a beacon signaling for me to step on and see my weight and I run.  Now, when I vowed to weigh in once a week, it seems as if I am drawn to the scale.  But I hold off, it's hard, but I hold off.

January 9, 2011
Weight:  250.4
Total loss: 4.6
Measurements: Still have to get to it
Mood: Feeling Good
Exercise: Did tread mill yesterday (30 min), will see what today brings.

I guess I expected more weight loss this week.  I've been following the program, eating a ton of veggies, drinking my water.  But I'm over forty, peri menopausal, so I guess it's going to be slower.

I am not exercising like I should, that I know.  This week that is one of my personal goals- get to the gym or do the dance game on the XBox Kinect-take the dog for a walk.  Anything to get the blood moving, pulse increasing.

Part of my motivation is to be healthier and at my age, in the stage I'm at, I need to exercise.  I look at my parents who are still young and see their health problems--many due to weight and unhealthy eating habits.  I do not want to be that way.  I can't be that way.  I want to enjoy my retirement with my husband, children and grandchildren.  If I keep on this track - the WW track - I will succeed and be healthy.  If not, I'm doomed to repeat the mistakes of my parents.

When do you weigh in?  Everyday, once a week, whenever?

Be Healthy!

The fat lady sings ~

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Motivation

New Year's Resolutions aren't the only things motivating me to lose weight.
I want to be happy.  I want to feel good about myself.  I want to be able to tie my shoes without discomfort.  I want to wear a bra that doesn't cut off my circulation.

I also have a family and I worry I won't be there for them.  I also don't want to be left out of activities because I'm so unfit.

Diabetes and cancer run in my family - as does heart disease.
I also have high blood pressure and worry that if I continue on this track I will become diabetic.

What motivates you?

I'm loving Weight Watchers.  It's easy and online.  I actually find that I'm having trouble using all of my points.  I feel energized and satisfied.

January 5, 2011
Weight:  Weigh in on Sunday, I'll let you know
Measurements: Still have to get to it
Mood: Feeling Good
Exercise: Walked the other day - going to the gym today!

Be healthy!

The fat lady sings~

New Year's Resolutions

It happens every year.  Millions of people pledge to lose weight and exercise more.  I'm one of those millions and I am pleased to admit--I've hit rock bottom.

I am the heaviest I have ever been (even when pregnant) and I'm sick of the extra flab that makes it hard for me to live my life.  That roll that acts like a double (triple) chin around my middle.  The tiredness, the crankiness, and the pain of having to shop in plus size stores.

I may be the only person who reads this blog, but I think it will help me tracking my weight as well as sharing my feelings.

Here are my before pictures - disgusting, I know.  But I think documenting this is so important.

January 2, 2011 - Weight 252.2 (down from 255)
Measurements to come
Mood = tired - didn't sleep well, but did enjoy time with the family
Exercise = none today



So, What am I going to do to lose the weight?  I have joined Weight Watchers.  I am not saying this is the plan for everyone.  Each person has to make their own choice and see if it is the right, healthy option.  For me, I know it works.  It has worked for me in the past.  I just have to find out how to keep it working for the long haul.  I am doing the online version.  That was one of the points I didn't like about physical meetings - the humiliation of weighing in before other people and hearing if you lost or gained publicly.


The fat lady sings~